- Homesick -

i dont know why...
but this feeling...
the home sick feeling...
is strongest when i know i'll be home hrs later..
the waiting hrs is just an unpleasant one..
i thought i handled it well..
but tears begins to roll...
i'm surrounded by new systems and people and feeling everyday..
live in uncertainty..
all i want is just..
to go home..
have a long good hot water bath..
ly on my big comfy king size bed..
and be pampered by my parents...
it's gonna be an emo long night
=(

- I Hate It -

I hate it when my thousands of doubt is not answered...

I hate it when i find no one to talk to when i'm troubled...

I hate it when i cant let go of mistakes i did wrong...

I hate it when insomnia strikes me every night reminding how wrong i am...

I hate it when i am effortless in fixing my mistakes...

I hate it when i wanted so badly to blame everything on you but i cant...

I hate it when i question why my action doesnt listen to my rationality...

I hate it when my ability to make wise decision is terrible...

I hate it when i make such a big fool out of myself...

I hate it when his comment kept repeating in my head...

I hate it when people are making fun out of my misery...

I hate it when i know what i did is so not fair to you...

- Shopping spreeeeeeeee -

Went shopping with mummy today...
yes...
i enjoy shopping...
especially when i am not the one paying
wee~~
still got lots more in my 'to-buy-list'...
i'm so excited when i saw all those banner printing 'SALES'...
syok-nya =D

- Time -

one week to go...
part of me is excited bout the changes that'll be happening...
part of me is reluctant to accept this major changes...
CONFUSED~

- GUILT -

Have you ever done something so wrong that you cant forgive yourself?

those things aren't suppose to happened